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[12 Jun 2006|08:49pm] |
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i think hell is feeling like this all the time
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[16 Jun 2005|04:15pm] |
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so i ahve been telling myself for the passed couple months that at least you got "that" going for you. well that broke my heart too and now it's hard to see the bottom. My heart feels like winter
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[15 Apr 2005|09:52am] |
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My first friend turned 21 when i was 16. Since then i have been hearing the always charming "sucks you're not 21 yet man." For the last 2 years it has become a daily thing. I shit you not on a daily basis someone reminds me i am not 21 yet. And i would like to inform the world that i am well aware i am not 21 yet; this is not going to change without time. So yeah quit making me feel like shit for not being older and deal with the fact i am 19 and as dope as any 21yr old
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i got my heart broken today i i forgot how much it sucks. Yet it happens to everyone. i dont suppose that makes it any better.
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so i think i am going to go to paso today and try to have matt cut my hair. I need a haircut pretty bad, personally i like having long fucked up hair, but my boss feels differently. I got bored last night and drove downtown to walk around(which is interesting that i have to drive in order to go walking, sounds like a personal problem)and get coffee. So i got a cup of coffeee and started walking around, and a really good short story started cominh to me. So i went in to barns and noble to buy a pen and notebook. I had coffee and was smoking, so i just left the cup and cigarrette both steaming away at a table. Little did i know the woman at the regisgter had no idea what the hell was going on in life. So i run over and grad the first notebook i like and walk straight to the register. When I get there some girl is wandering aimlesly around the aisle, so i ask if she is "in line" or not, and she responds yes. So she continues up to the only open register and asks about the book. At first cashier tres to use personal knowldge to help the girl, then sh e reorts to the computer. Either way after four minutes of baffling conversation they both decide the girl doesn;t have enough info to find what she is looking for. During all this, I don't have a pen and proceed to pick one out of the case. The big mistake. First off the case had no front to it, it was merely a clear plastic cubbies topped by a tray displaying the spectrum of marbalized colored pens. So i ask for a black one at the register, both CADL and credit card ready and in my hand. So the lady looks at the case puzzled. Then she tries removing the lid, works but now the top display is only open. So she grabs the black display and tries to scan it (mind you display items are un barcoded). Doesn;t work. So she calls for back up. Guy comes over looks at pen looks at case, back to pen. He starts muttering shit and grabs the case, removes and brown pen and hands it to me. I reply "black please" he then begins shuufling and sorting through pen. Finally i got to tired of this i reached over to the i reach over the counter into the display pull out the pen i want. Both of them look at me red i the face, one walks off the other runs my card. After my best attempt at a cordial parting, i go outside; cigarette smoldered coffee luke warm. All in all though i got my story jotted down on paper and not lost to wherever good ideas go when you forget to use them.
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[06 Mar 2005|10:45pm] |
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today sucked and this looking forward at this week makes nothing better......
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[07 Sep 2004|11:58pm] |
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it is so hot in atown right now i cant even sleep. I am trying to find some place in slo county that buys used clothes, i have a bunch of fred perry, a BS suit, and two pea coats but dont know where to take them. school is lame but at least it is easy this semester.
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[01 Mar 2004|07:41am] |
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i woke up this morning, just hangin out, being fine. then boom had to run into the bathroom, but it was too late projectile vomit all over, it was so much puke that even when i was at the toilet it stil wash spraying out onto the seat. Pretty sick, yeah, try being there for it.
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so if my computer worked i would show you all the craziness that has been my life the passed month, but alas, not on this eve. i spent all my money like a jackass, but boy did i have fun for a month :).
things i miss...
my own apartment
hanging out with stephanie
24 hour mexican food
shit to do at night
job that paid pretty well
chris d, chris e, pat, and eric
things i am enjoying here....
the good ol' boys
mad parties
girls, girls, girls
did i mention girls
people who understand me without me needing to explain myself
the cold of winter
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[05 Dec 2003|12:47am] |
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drugs are bad, end of story.
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[27 Nov 2003|01:50pm] |
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happy thanks giving everyone!!!!!
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[26 Nov 2003|09:37pm] |
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Thanks giving is tomorrow. I am trying to decide what the most thanksgiving-like beer is. i dont hvae jack shit to do tomorrow so i think ill get drunk and watch the video kevin's girlfriend sent ne from germany. I got hired at my new job as a part time seasonal worker, i am now a full time non-seasonal worker, funny how these things play out. I wish i could go to atown for thanksgiving, but that would mean driving home tonight at 9pm, and leaving there tomorrow at midnight. But even that would be worthless because i dont even hear from people in atown anymore except through this thing (however cary and erika, you too are left out of that because you still call me like once a week to see how i am doing). I started talking to an old friend again this week. It was funny how we (especially me) kinda just got over all that had happened and goofed around and bull shitted like we did in high school. Oh yeah, the biggest deal in my life right now is that cristiane sent me that video and a letter. The letter fucked me up alot, because i had to put myself back into that sitting down and thinking about it again phase. But next time i'm in atown i will bring the video and everyone who wants to can see it, and then it will be given to kathy to be stored in safety with the rest of the stuff.Well everyone, have a happy thanksgiving and put down some turkey for me. And if any of you get bored, give me a ring.
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[18 Nov 2003|08:33pm] |
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i went to work at 10pm last night, i got off twenty minutes ago, i have school in 45 minutes. My life right now is how do they say in french, aw yes, BALLS.
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[18 Nov 2003|08:01am] |
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what is the best program for downloading music now a days?
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[17 Nov 2003|10:59am] |
so yeah here it finally is. I found out one of my friends took this pic the day after i got it, so it is kinda old, but oh well.PS. It is not done yeah, the sails will be shaded and i am getting a banner with KRD and kev's bday on it
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[12 Nov 2003|11:56am] |
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today when i woke up from my nap, i was over run with all these thoughts and memories of kevin dieing, and it made me so sick i almost puked. Then all day at work (which i showed up late too) i was just sick to my stomach and could barely look anyone in the eye. I just kept thinking about that first moment i saw steve at the funeral and how sick i felt the day kathy, matt, jeff, and i drove over to steve's house so kathy could go into kev's room to get some more stuff out. I still feel like shit now. And during closing people kept asking me questions and i was in a fucked up mood so i gave so weird answers and now they quite frankly look at me in disgust. Oh well. I start working early morings and night shift soon. I wrote people who were gonna visit me this weekend and told them not to come and i am hoping my room mate goes out of town, i kinda just want to sit and be alone for a few days. I wish i could.
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[11 Nov 2003|11:04pm] |
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being depressed sucks. Something cool needs to happen soon. This shit going bad thing really blows dogs for quaters.
I have to work from 5-11 tonight. This means roughly 600 girls are going to lie to me about their pant size so they dont feel bad about their hips. Which mean i actually have to do twice as much work, because once they are in the dressing room they are just going to ask the girl back there for their real pant size, and then the girl pages me and has me get them. Stupid girls, who cares that i wear smaller pants than you do.
to tell the truth i cant wait to go home to a-town and see people who dont make me want to kill. And i can see her and pretend she cares about me at least a little, though i am pretty sure she doesn't at all. BUt that is okay, because everyone loves getting treated like shit and having their feelings rejected. I know it is my favorite. Especially the getting treated like shit part.
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[10 Nov 2003|11:57am] |
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right now i am happy. Why am i happy, because my friends are happy. Dez this one goes out to you.
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[03 Nov 2003|09:31am] |
 this was me at the tender age of 16, this is me now  my how things look the same. hehehe.
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[02 Nov 2003|09:16am] |
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anyone know how to post pics on this?
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